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serinde ([personal profile] serinde) wrote2002-12-20 03:17 pm

Shift/change/grow?

In addition to the continued appetite anomaly, I find I'm also driven to take walks (as long as I have time for) during lunch. It's another thing I've always wanted to do, but usually lamed or lazed out.

I also feel like I'm drawing inward further, not _withdrawing_ mind you--it feels much more positive than that would be--but just turning attention inward, almost as if in preparation for something. I don't want to drag in the tired old analogy about caterpillars and cocoons, but that _is_ sort of what it feels like. And in the middle of concentrating on whatever's about to happen, several of my self-indulgent behaviors are being drowned out. I might be more worried (as I don't have much of a tendency to change; I am the rock-solid unchanging pooky) but I can't help feeling really serene about it. That would seem to indicate that it's all good.

[identity profile] blarglefiend.livejournal.com 2002-12-20 07:41 pm (UTC)(link)
Sounds like your subconscious knows something that the rest of you doesn't. Maybe it's about to get militant about kids or something like that?