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Yesterday, I once again had a terrible headache and nausea. I'm not sure what is up with that. Perimenopause? Since I've been really good about drinking water, I don't think it is that. Maybe I'm not sleeping enough? I'm not tired, though. I wasn't especially stressed, although both times this has happened, it was when I was going to the neurofeedback center. I don't know if that means anything. So, yeah.

I'm going to try to go to bed a bit earlier, which of course puts more pressure on me during the day to either get stuff done or decide that I don't have time for it.

We've made good progress on the yard and the bathroom.

In the yard, we finished weeding, spread most of the wood chips, and distributed the sand that remained from the work on the wall as paths over the wood chips. I also repotted the okra and moved the pots over to be by the chayote plant, so that I will be forced to remember to water it. I also moved the star jasmine over by the other plants for the same reason, although that is a climber, so it will need some kind of trellis soon.

In the bathroom, I sanded and painted the part of the wall that was screwed up by the repairs and installation of the tiles. It doesn't look perfect, but it is okay. I've ordered some grout sealant, so when that shows up, we can fix the grout too.

I've nearly finished sewing the blue sun shirt. It just needs button holes and buttons. I'll do the embroidery separately.

After that, my plan is to clean the walls downstairs in a few spots and put more mortar on them to fill holes. That may or may not get done this week. I also want to plan out the components for the raised beds and order them. We'll see how that goes.

I'm moody. And anxious. However, I made some progress on the shirts (they just need collars/neck stuff and buttons for the sun shirt). I tried on the sun shirt, and it fits well, but it is so plain right now that it looks really strange. That's okay. I have plans for that.

I got the reimbursement form for the latest batch of neurofeedback sessions submitted, so that is one less thing on my plate. The painting of cat feet that I'm doing instead of painting cats (I'm too anxious to paint cats right now) is coming along. The tabby cat foot looks pretty good. Maybe not quite perfect, but the fur looks like fur.

We've made great progress getting the huge pile of mulch dealt with, but I now realize that it is making me cough a lot (allergies). I'll wear a mask, so that should help.

It seems that getting polyps removed from your sinuses involves a lot of steroids. Previously, steroids have produced bad psychiatric issues for me. I don't remember what happened, but I do remember that we decided to never do that again. The doctor was also a dick. So, I'm in no rush to get the polyps dealt with. Oh, well.

In better news, Joel and I made a bunch of progress on the garden. He finished weeding the section that had been under the chicken coop, while I repotted the okra seedlings. Then, we both worked on moving the mulch from having our trees pruned to cover the whole under-coop area. There is still some mulch left, so I'm going to deal with the remaining weeds in the next section under the olive tree and put the rest of it there. Progress is being made!

Sometimes, I wonder if I'm making a mistake and am not really anxious. Usually, that is when I'm doing okay or am distracted. Today, I don't wonder if I'm anxious. I definitely have plenty of anxiety. For no specific reason. I'm going to the doctor on Wednesday to hopefully start the process to deal with the polyps in my sinuses, but I'm excited to get that going. Granted, that doesn't mean that I wouldn't be anxious too, but I go out every Wednesday, so I think I'm okay with it. Did I do too much with all those appointments over the last couple weeks? Is it leftover crazy from the anaesthesia? Does my brain not know yet that I won't go back to neurofeedback this week, so it is busy being crazy about that? I also was going to work on the reimbursement paperwork for neurofeedback (until I found I was missing a receipt), and that is super stressful. So, it could have been that. However, what I know for sure is that I still have more than enough anxiety. I think I'll eat lunch and rest.