I am Jack's sweaty, paralyzing terror.
Jul. 6th, 2004 06:27 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
serindeSo when you're slung across someone's back, with the top of your favorite head several feet above the ground with nothing in between; when your outside arm is supposed to stay hanging on to the other guy's shoulder and you're not supposed to roll sideways off his back or anything like that, but rather to go straight forward like a midair somersault but all you can see is how far down it is and envision how your neck might snap like a green twig if you fuck this up--do you have the cojones to let go and merrily roll forward, trusting your body to do the right thing?
This is koshinage, and after a year and a half I still can't do the ukemi for it. Though, with Gavin's patient help, I've come closer today than ever before: a) I know what I'd been doing wrong, b) I know what I should be doing instead. Unfortunately, c), the right way is tapping into primal fears I didn't know I had. But, d), on the last try I managed to slap down my panic enough to at least fling myself off in the correct direction. It still hurt like a mother, because I didn't do the rest of it right, but having managed it once without breaking my neck, each future time I'll at least have a plus on my Will save, or something. As long as the next few times we do this in class I don't get paired with a seriously testosterone-based lifeform, I think I may be able to get somewhere with it.
This is koshinage, and after a year and a half I still can't do the ukemi for it. Though, with Gavin's patient help, I've come closer today than ever before: a) I know what I'd been doing wrong, b) I know what I should be doing instead. Unfortunately, c), the right way is tapping into primal fears I didn't know I had. But, d), on the last try I managed to slap down my panic enough to at least fling myself off in the correct direction. It still hurt like a mother, because I didn't do the rest of it right, but having managed it once without breaking my neck, each future time I'll at least have a plus on my Will save, or something. As long as the next few times we do this in class I don't get paired with a seriously testosterone-based lifeform, I think I may be able to get somewhere with it.
